Monday, January 7, 2013

Bad booze


Good morning all:

As a general rule I tend not to drink too often – actually hardly at all. It’s not that I have any philosophical aversion to booze, in fact I am quite supportive of spirits in all their forms. The thing is I read somewhere – probably in some antisocial health magazine where the author is healthy, but his attitude makes everyone else sick – that alcohol can retard platelet production.

Last night, my temptress wife asked if I would like a glass of champagne from a bottle we got for New Years and never opened. Hmmmm, I thought win, one of my favorites. Bubbly wine no less. 

Anyway I had a glass, and she had a glass, and she had another glass, and I had another glass, and then the bottle was gone.

Well I had a little buzz going and wanted a little more wine. We got this wine basket for Christmas and I had already determined the wine it with was a bit nasty. I mean a basket with four bottles of wine, crackers, cookies, and assorted hoity-toity snacks – its bounds good and classy, but you know. Anyway I cracked open this bottle of Sauvignon Blanc (should’ve been Sauvignon Yech), and have a two have glasses (spoken like a true alcoholic I know). 

I don’t know if there will be a platelet drop, there sure was a sleep drop. I had the worst upset stomach all night and ended up getting very little sleep. I couldn’t get comfortable and I forgot that wine usually wakes me up in the middle of the night. It made me feel bloated (although that might have been the two Red Baron Mini-Pizzas I ate).

Well, I think I’m off wine now; I just can’t hang. Maybe I’ll try some bourbon next time or maybe I just won’t drink.

Well see you tomorrow,

Love Bill 

Sunday, January 6, 2013

Chills and Coco


Good morning all:

Had a great day yesterday and a little scare.

My fat white dog Buzz and I went for a 90-minute walk in the woods of White Clay Creek Park. It was Wait!! I don’t want to write it this way.

Buzz at his most alluring.
Bill and his overweight white dog Buzz pulled into White Clay Creek State Park’s Paper Mill Road back entrance. The red Toyota Tacoma bounced down the rutted road toward the little parking lot where most of the biking/hiking trails begin. It’s a fairly good, though rustic, network of trails.

When they started their walk, Bill had a half-drank (or is it drunk) cup of black coffee from Dunkin Donuts in one hand and the retractable lead attached to Buzz in the other. Parts of the trail were a bit slick from some snow and ice that had melted from early day sun.

So off they went dodging the occasional mountain biker and strolling along the five-mile (or so) trail. It was cold and the rolling hills helped Bill work up a sweat. Buzz acquitted himself well and basked in the different smells the odd pile of deer droppings and whatever else smells good to dogs, but disgusting to humans.

Other then the stone quiet of the day two things highlighted the walk. Vibrant blue finch-like birds flittered from leafless bush to leafless bush as if putting on a show or ushering out the two interlopers. And after walking about twenty minutes, Bill finished his coffee and since there are no trash cans (a pack in, pack out area) Bill had to carry his white coffee cup in his hand and eventually the spittle from the bottom of the cup dripped onto Buzz’s back adding some beige polka dots to his white mane.

The walk – the on the cold side – was grand – as the British say.

The two explorers went home with visions of snack dancing in their heads for the NFL playoffs set for the evening. It was to be a feast of disgusting—though obligatory food.

Since the games didn’t kickoff ‘till about 4 p.m. there was enough time for a bit of a nap.  Bill took off his black sweat-soaked Carhart long sleeve tee shirt (it makes him feel like a many man) and climbed into bed. His teeth were almost chattering from a chill he had picked up on the walk.

During his cancer treatments Bill had been twice rushed to the hospital and ended up being admitted for various complications and the episodes started with chills. His self diagnosed PTSD kicked in.

“Shit,” he thought. “I’m getting sick again. Maybe it’s just a chill. I have to keep quiet about this. I don’t want to scare my wife. Shit.

The Blast furnace
Well As the next little while passed and Bill still could warm up he pulled the hood of his sweatshirt up over his head and called his Yorkshire Terrier Coco.

“Coco can save me,” he thought. “We don’t call her the blast furnace for nothing.”

“Coco! Come here baby,” he shouted in his most pleasant voice. “Daddy needs to see you.”

The dog, ever the contrarian, ran to the side of peeked over and ran the other way.

“I’m gonna kill that dog,” He thought.

“Coco! Come here.”

After three or four attempts Coco finally jumped on the bed and as is her habit, crawled under the blankets and snuggled Bill.

Once upon a time people used bed warmers with hot coals inside a decorative brass lidded pan, sliding the pan between the sheets and blankets. Coco has that ability, minus the fire danger.

So when Bills right side got warmer, he loved the dog to his left side, and right, then left and on and on. Coco finally realizing she was just an object of convection instead of affection, took off. NO matter Bill was toasty and settled in for a worry free nap.

Saturday, January 5, 2013

Not a lot to tell


Well Gang:

No big revelations since yesterday except, working at home is tough if you actually work. Yikes.

I know one thing for sure I have very little will power as fare as cakes go. Man I do love pastry and baked good. It will be my downfall.

This chemo-brain thing is really aggravating. I was just trying to think of the word for anti-cancer properties of food and I was stumped. That is happening more than I like lately. Kind of irritating. The word is antioxidant. What I was saying is I hope cake has an antioxidant effect, because I’ve been eating a lot of it. 

I recently read an article that said you should try to blog everyday. Well, sometimes it is hard to think of things to say, especially if you’re not sure anyone is reading. What does my audience want to talk about? Oh well, I guess this is a loneliness of a long distance runner kind of thing.

Oh well … BTW the above reference has nothing to do with the modern poem or movie. In fact, I’ve never read or seen either of those. At least I don’t think I have – how the hell would I know anyway.

Got a crushing headache, but I’m avoiding the docs office. I have a long history of headaches.

That’s it. See you tomorrow when I talk about job hunting or job staying.

Just a photo from Bennington Vt.
Bill 

Friday, January 4, 2013

Survivor stuff that’s for real.




I go to the docs on 16 January to get a blood check and hopefully a thumbs up. Well I still have this damn cough hanging around and while it doesn’t frighten me, it does remind me that things aren’t the way they once were. I’m hoping the blood work will tell me where I am on the immune-deficiency spectrum.

That’s kind of a big deal. Everyone at work is sick and coughing and hacking and yack, yack, yack. There’s a whole building of people I’m trying to avoid, so I got permission to work from home. That’s pretty cool. I guess that is the survivor lesson. If people are coughing and sneezing and brining kids around, run for you life. Because, that is exactly what you’re doing.

Don’t forget I’m the guy that was rushed to the hospital for neutropenia a while back. I ain’t going down that road any time soon So that is – as they – that.

You always hear stories about somebody catching something that turns into pneumonia and it kills them. Not this boy. I’m taking every precaution I can until I hear from the doc that my immune system is okay.

Until then I am going to be super cautious and unreasonably germaphobic (if that’s even a word).

I guess that’s it for now.

Peace,

Bill

Thursday, January 3, 2013

emptiness

Good morning everyone.

Well I’m just kind of hanging out waiting for me day to begin. I’ve been very fatigued as of late. Not really sure why that is. My working out has taken a back seat to actual work issues. You see, I like working out at lunch time. Right now I’m doing my this walking up and down the steps thing and I haven’t been able to get to it because of a hot work item that had a short deadline.

Anyway, I’m a little behind where I want to be.

My master plan last year was to sell the house and run away. Well it ain’t sold. I’m not sure if it’s the price r the railroad that goes through my back yard, but the fact of the matter is I’m a bit stuck for a little while.

It’s funny when you survive cancer, you expect your life to be more than it was. That you should do more with it, but somehow reality sneaks in and you’re a bit hemmed in and you stand waiting for something to break so you can burst out and live the new life you were given. The problem is the rest of the world doesn’t understand. and there is a resulting emptiness.

I guess that’s it for today.

See ya,

BIll


Wednesday, January 2, 2013

NO post today

I don’t have much to say today. I don’t feel like going to work, but then again. who does.  

I’m kind of at a cross road I’ll explain more tomorrow.

BIll

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Happy New Year! I have a bit to go recovery wise, but I have a great foundation. This years goals include:

running ten miles.
Getting to Seattle to visit Melissa
reading 17 books
setting up my web page
becoming a lymphoma advocate
getting my book published
dropping 15 pounds (er ah preposition medical weight -- or whatever it is I wrote).
60 pushups

That’s it for today

Love to all Bill