Came up with this goofy chart. This
worked for me, but different things might be important to you. Regardless, the
point is to develop some criteria to, as objectively as possible, evaluate
where you are and where you want to go. For example when I got sick I was able
to do about 65 pushups. After Chemo it was closer to five. Obviously that told
me I had lost strength and had to adjust my life accordingly or work on that
area to improve my strength. If you like to hike you could compare your walking
endurance before and after chemo. All these things take great intellectual
honesty. Lying to yourself is the worst thing you can do. I lost some verbal
ability and can’t banter as quickly as I did before chemo, so I’ve had to
adjust my interpersonal exchanges accordingly.
So unless you are a superman/woman you
lost something. You’re no longer faster than a speeding bullet, you can’t
change the course of mighty rivers, and you’re not more powerful than a locomotive.
That can be bitter pill to swallow if you’re not ready to start again. In a lot
of ways ALL OVER AGAIN, but if you are there are new journeys to take and new
discoveries about you. It can be quite a fun. So when you find out you’ve
changed, don’t stick your thumb in your mouth and cry for more than a day. Get
back in the fight, because we need you, your family needs you, and you need
you.
Good!
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